BEDJ/A*

*Blogging (sort of) everyday in July/ August

The aim for this blog was always to write. There was no specific writing goal. I just wanted to write things. Anything really. 

It's like Casey Neistat said recently in a video- "The only think between you and achieving your dreams is doing it". 

With uni and life and the usual excuses, I haven't been writing. On or offline. That makes me sad. So, I decided to just start writing. I've posted over the last few days but truthfully, they are pieces I wrote a while ago. I think I've been trying to ease myself into it. 

For the next few days I'm going to attempt journal-style posts. It may work. It may not. But I'm going to try. 

Right now, at the stage of life I'm in, trying seems to be the best foot forward. 

So....

Here are a few thoughts I've been having recently:

• I've just finished watching BBC's 'The Outcast'. It was a beautiful drama that made me think about trains and journeying. As someone who loves the London Underground I've always loved trains and the experience of movement. There's always this particular feeling I have when standing on a platform. It's like you're simultaneously significant and integral to the crowds of people waiting for the next train, and yet you, like every one person in that crowd are no one. I'm not sure if that makes sense but I guess what I'm saying is that train stations are a place that always resonate metaphorically for me as places of progess or lagging, depending on your perspective that day. The show made me think about childhood, adulthood and the liminal space in between. It made me think about the complex relationship between being okay and being good at hiding you're okay. It made me think about how much when we are children, we change in so many ways, and yet in other ways, we never change at all. 
  
  
  *deep breath* 

• I'm graduating next week and I haven't really been able to look someone in the face and say the words- 'I'm graduating'. 

• I have so much love for 'The West Wing'.... re-watching series one at the moment.

• I can't tell if me being a private person is just another way of saying I'm a coward. 

• How are we supposed to keep up with news from around the world and live as functional human beings? I recognise this is a problematic point, that it allows for complacency, and that it is a pathetic excuse for being willfully ignorant but it's something I think about anyway...

Until tomorrow...

T