I think I had my worst ever lesson today.
It was the period after lunch and the class was just crazy. I feel like I did so many things wrong. I was firm but for some reason it wasn't enough.
It was a rubbish lesson and I felt like all the students who were well-behaved were cheated out of a good lesson. That's the hardest part. How do you manage an entire class when they are all at different places in their learning???????
I kept a few students back but part of me feels like I should have sent some of the students out. I entertained the nonsense for too long. I should have nipped it in the bud. There were points in the lesson where they were definitely running rings around me.
I felt deflated and slightly angry afterwards. This was mostly because I had engaged in futile conversations with the kids and it became a silly 'I didn't do it', 'yes you did' scenario. I get worried sometimes and think that I can't do it.
And what if I can't?
What is left?
I didn't realise that I would have to be my own cheerleader when I began my PGCE. Now that I am nearing the end of my first placement, that's what I feel like I am having to do- cheer for myself.
It sucks.
It was the period after lunch and the class was just crazy. I feel like I did so many things wrong. I was firm but for some reason it wasn't enough.
It was a rubbish lesson and I felt like all the students who were well-behaved were cheated out of a good lesson. That's the hardest part. How do you manage an entire class when they are all at different places in their learning???????
I kept a few students back but part of me feels like I should have sent some of the students out. I entertained the nonsense for too long. I should have nipped it in the bud. There were points in the lesson where they were definitely running rings around me.
I felt deflated and slightly angry afterwards. This was mostly because I had engaged in futile conversations with the kids and it became a silly 'I didn't do it', 'yes you did' scenario. I get worried sometimes and think that I can't do it.
And what if I can't?
What is left?
I didn't realise that I would have to be my own cheerleader when I began my PGCE. Now that I am nearing the end of my first placement, that's what I feel like I am having to do- cheer for myself.
It sucks.
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